VERY SAD NEWS

AWD made his last comment on August 2 telling me to have a good time on my vacation in Wildwood. After two weeks I sent him an email to see if he was OK. I didn’t receive a response. I began to fear the worst.

I started googling his name tonight and sadly found what I didn’t want to find. His obituary.

AWD died in his home on August 5. The autopsy revealed he died of natural causes. It sounded like he had been sick. He is survived by his two daughters. He was only 50 years old.

AWD has been one of TBPs biggest contributors throughout the years. He always had my back. We disagreed sometimes, but he always supported me. He took the pressure off me by finding interesting articles to post. His contributions always generated great debates.

His original moniker was Asshole Doctor. But, I made so many jokes about him being a proctologist that he changed it to AWD.

Avalon and I are shocked and saddened by this terrible news. I feel sad for his young daughters. He loved TBP and the assortment of characters. One of his last comments was on the What Woke You Up post. His fondness for the people on the site and description of TBP captures our community perfectly:

“The Burning Platform opened my eyes. Seriously. That’s not me just blowing smoke up Admin’s ass”

Quinn let me use a Rome post of his for a book I wrote. He was very cool about it. Then I finally saw TBP, and it’s changed my life. It’s gotten me to prepare for what is coming. It enriches my life on a daily basis. I get to hang out with Stuck, and every other person on here, the coolest, smartest, most grounded, sensible, funny, deep, well, not enough superlatives. And from all over the country, but like a a hang-out, bar, party, barbeque, bachelor party, you know; lots of fun and insight. Greatest blog their is, free for all, controlled anarchy. It’s whatever we make it, and we make it good….

His last comment on my Gone Fishin post about going to Wildwood perfectly captures the no holds barred craziness of this site:

bb

Go fuck yourself. Dumb ass village idiot.

Have fun Admin…..

We’ve now lost two huge pieces of TBP – Smokey and AWD. They both held nothing back. The place will never be the same without AWD. I’ll miss him. I hope him and Smokey have met up in heaven (???) and are cursing like sailors about Obama and the rest of the dumbasses running this country.

Farwell Doc. We will all try to breathe.

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SSS
SSS
August 23, 2014 8:53 pm

Oh, my. Such sad news.

There is a brotherhood and sisterhood here on TBP that exists nowhere else on the Internet. Blood all over, even among brothers and sisters. But the bonds prevail.

AWD was an anchor brother here and outspoken citizen who truly loved his country. On that, there can be no dispute. May God grant him eternal peace and bring solace to his family.

Tom
Tom
August 23, 2014 9:03 pm

Condolences to all that knew him.

taxSlave
taxSlave
August 23, 2014 9:08 pm

.Very sad news.

Stucky
Stucky
August 23, 2014 9:10 pm

Just 50 years old. Holy shit.

A life-long friend of Ms Freud died late last week. She was only in her early 60s. Death, everywhere, at this age. Or, so it seems.

Wow. I can’t believe it. AWD never even hinted that he had medical issues. Maybe I’m wrong.

I will sorely miss him. Big time. We all will. He was one of my favorites here. I’ll miss the fatfuk articles and pictures. His disdain for Oreo was a beautiful thing to behold.

Jeez, this sucks. I’m going to bed. I have nothing else to say. SMH.

archie
archie
August 23, 2014 9:22 pm

Wow. Horrible news. AWD had a writing style that was unique–a rat-tat-tat machine gunner prose I always admired. I will miss him here. R.I.P.

Steve Hogan
Steve Hogan
August 23, 2014 9:28 pm

50-years-old? Damn. I’m 50. Life is short, folks. Live it to the fullest.

joel
joel
August 23, 2014 9:43 pm

another nameless voice, who i read, who knows what my thoughts were, yet i thought. i spent far to many days saying goodbye to real real good people of late, running out of friends. is the country running out of the old guard/ i wonder, how can my son have a clue to where i come from. and era long since gone. the man died far too soon for my liking, life can be a bitch, as a farmer i know all too well. funny how strangers have a way of becoming family. hope you meet some wonderful folks in the next station on the road to where ever.

Smoke Jensen
Smoke Jensen
August 23, 2014 9:50 pm

R.I.P. AWD.

dirtscratcher
dirtscratcher
August 23, 2014 9:50 pm

Now I know why he was so quick to recognize an asshole. As a proctologist, when he called somebody an asshole, that would qualify as an expert opinion. We will all miss him at TBP; but his family even more so. Condolences to all he touched in his life.

harry p.
harry p.
August 23, 2014 9:53 pm

I was just thinking this past week that i hadnt seen him post in a while,AWD will be missed, i just hope his final days werent painful.
My condolensences to his family.

Olga
Olga
August 23, 2014 10:02 pm

I feel for the kids – too, too young.

Rise Up
Rise Up
August 23, 2014 10:16 pm

I identified with most everything AWD posted and commented. Sorry he’s not here any longer.

Econman
Econman
August 23, 2014 10:23 pm

Uh, wow. Condolences to his family.

Econman
Econman
August 23, 2014 10:24 pm

His last comment is a fuckin classic.

juandonjuan
juandonjuan
August 23, 2014 10:29 pm

well, we’re still angry,yeah?
disgruntled just doesn’t have the same edge
Thanks, Jim, for giving us this forum for the people who will NOT go quietly

Cynical30
Cynical30
August 23, 2014 10:35 pm

Aw man this is terrible. Rest in peace AWD

bb
bb
August 23, 2014 10:36 pm

I just got a phone call today telling me an old high school friend died Monday. He was 52 .Now AWD.I’m not sure what to say. I hope he knows I was playing around when I made those stupid comments on his posts .I just enjoyed getting him to respond .

dilligaf
dilligaf
August 23, 2014 10:37 pm

Strange symptom of the digital age, is that someone that is in your life daily, can just one day disappear.

At least in this case, Admin was able to find closure.

My first dust up here was with AWD.

RIP AWD.

Persnickety
Persnickety
August 23, 2014 10:42 pm

I’ll miss you AWD.

Westcoaster
Westcoaster
August 23, 2014 11:09 pm

As one of the relative newcomers here, please let me add my condolences. I enjoyed his POV. TBP indeed is populated with those who have, for lack of a better word, “soul”.

Chicago999444
Chicago999444
August 23, 2014 11:17 pm

I am sad. I didn’t always agree with the guy, but his comments spiced up this site.

His age makes it all the more tragic… a relatively young man with a children.

Mary Malone
Mary Malone
August 23, 2014 11:18 pm

Oh, no. Such sad, terrible news. AWD was a fierce warrior, but very kind and often sweet.

My brother-in-law recently died of cancer, one day before his 52nd birthday. Seems like God is calling a number of His children home earlier than we expect these days.

Rest in peace AWD.

dunce
dunce
August 23, 2014 11:57 pm

Wow fuck this life.

We can’t afford to lose Libertarians in perilous times like these/

Can’t afford to lose any intelligent humans.

RIP

Cliff
Cliff
August 24, 2014 12:15 am

Wow. How sad. I loved his comments. Very insightful. We are all better people for knowing of him and his wisdom. This quote comes to mind when we lose someone as original as AWD.

“There he goes. One of God’s own prototypes. Some kind of high powered mutant never even considered for mass production. Too weird to live, and too rare to die.”

Hunter S. Thompson

Peace be the journey.

WrenX
WrenX
August 24, 2014 12:31 am

Very sorry to see this sad news. AWD was an important voice here. Terrible for his daughters.

Zarathustra
Zarathustra
August 24, 2014 1:00 am

I am just sick about this. I was wondering where he was. Now I guess I need to email HZK and make sure she is alright. So typical for an MD, they spend so much effort healing others that they neglect themselves.
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Why Doctors Die Differently

By Ken Murray

February 25, 2012

Years ago, Charlie, a highly respected orthopedist and a mentor of mine, found a lump in his stomach. It was diagnosed as pancreatic cancer by one of the best surgeons in the country, who had developed a procedure that could triple a patient’s five-year-survival odds—from 5% to 15%—albeit with a poor quality of life.

What’s unusual about doctors is not how much treatment they get compared with most Americans, but how little.

Charlie, 68 years old, was uninterested. He went home the next day, closed his practice and never set foot in a hospital again. He focused on spending time with his family. Several months later, he died at home. He got no chemotherapy, radiation or surgical treatment. Medicare didn’t spend much on him.

It’s not something that we like to talk about, but doctors die, too. What’s unusual about them is not how much treatment they get compared with most Americans, but how little. They know exactly what is going to happen, they know the choices, and they generally have access to any sort of medical care that they could want. But they tend to go serenely and gently.

Doctors don’t want to die any more than anyone else does. But they usually have talked about the limits of modern medicine with their families. They want to make sure that, when the time comes, no heroic measures are taken. During their last moments, they know, for instance, that they don’t want someone breaking their ribs by performing cardiopulmonary resuscitation (which is what happens when CPR is done right).

In a 2003 article, Joseph J. Gallo and others looked at what physicians want when it comes to end-of-life decisions. In a survey of 765 doctors, they found that 64% had created an advanced directive—specifying what steps should and should not be taken to save their lives should they become incapacitated. That compares to only about 20% for the general public. (As one might expect, older doctors are more likely than younger doctors to have made “arrangements,” as shown in a study by Paula Lester and others.)

Why such a large gap between the decisions of doctors and patients? The case of CPR is instructive. A study by Susan Diem and others of how CPR is portrayed on TV found that it was successful in 75% of the cases and that 67% of the TV patients went home. In reality, a 2010 study of more than 95,000 cases of CPR found that only 8% of patients survived for more than one month. Of these, only about 3% could lead a mostly normal life.

Unlike previous eras, when doctors simply did what they thought was best, our system is now based on what patients choose. Physicians really try to honor their patients’ wishes, but when patients ask “What would you do?,” we often avoid answering. We don’t want to impose our views on the vulnerable.

The result is that more people receive futile “lifesaving” care, and fewer people die at home than did, say, 60 years ago. Nursing professor Karen Kehl, in an article called “Moving Toward Peace: An Analysis of the Concept of a Good Death,” ranked the attributes of a graceful death, among them: being comfortable and in control, having a sense of closure, making the most of relationships and having family involved in care. Hospitals today provide few of these qualities.

Written directives can give patients far more control over how their lives end. But while most of us accept that taxes are inescapable, death is a much harder pill to swallow, which keeps the vast majority of Americans from making proper arrangements.

It doesn’t have to be that way. Several years ago, at age 60, my older cousin Torch (born at home by the light of a flashlight, or torch) had a seizure. It turned out to be the result of lung cancer that had gone to his brain. We learned that with aggressive treatment, including three to five hospital visits a week for chemotherapy, he would live perhaps four months.

Torch was no doctor, but he knew that he wanted a life of quality, not just quantity. Ultimately, he decided against any treatment and simply took pills for brain swelling. He moved in with me.

We spent the next eight months having fun together like we hadn’t had in decades. We went to Disneyland, his first time, and we hung out at home. Torch was a sports nut, and he was very happy to watch sports and eat my cooking. He had no serious pain, and he remained high-spirited.

One day, he didn’t wake up. He spent the next three days in a coma-like sleep and then died. The cost of his medical care for those eight months, for the one drug he was taking, was about $20.

As for me, my doctor has my choices on record. They were easy to make, as they are for most physicians. There will be no heroics, and I will go gentle into that good night. Like my mentor Charlie. Like my cousin Torch. Like so many of my fellow doctors.

—Dr. Murray is retired clinical assistant professor of family medicine at the University of Southern California. Adapted from an article originally published on Zocalo Public Square.

Gayle
Gayle
August 24, 2014 1:01 am

I was wondering why he had gone silent. A death never crossed my mind.

I was always impressed by his consistent output of enraged commentary. I especially enjoyed some of the satirical pieces he did. He will be sorely missed around here. I wish he’d had the chance to say goodbye.

Thank you admin for caring about one of your MIA regulars enough to go find him.

Peace to all.

Axel
Axel
August 24, 2014 1:20 am

I always felt a type of kinship to AWD–being a fellow physician in the Midwest,(formerly, however I’m from Las Vegas) not too far from where AWD hailed I believe, I grokked a lot of what he had to say. He was my age, my cohort. I will miss his insigh–t delivered in the malcontent, ornery fashion as befits one of the typical shit-throwing monkeys that inhabit this place. I say “malcontent” in a good way–the badge of honor that states that the man saw things as they were and was not satisfied, not content if you will, to let them stay that way. I will miss him. Rest in Piece.

Stephanie Shepard
Stephanie Shepard
August 24, 2014 1:54 am

I was wondering just yesterday how it was possible that I posted an article about race without any AWD comments. I hope he made a graceful exit and didn’t suffer. I wasn’t aware people could die from natural causes at the age of 50. I will be sure to have a beer for him.

Didius Julianus
Didius Julianus
August 24, 2014 1:59 am

This is very very sad. Does anyone know if he is the same or different from the owener of the angrywhitedude web site?

Mr Chen
Mr Chen
August 24, 2014 2:51 am

I’m sure that many folks here were missing AWD. He seemed to have mellowed out a bit recently. Maybe that’s just my impression. I remember his polite welcome, I got mad at him once but then I read a later comment and I told him I admired him.
I got a go fuck yourself from him when he defended Billy, it was a cleansing thing. I made an equally ignorant comment about Fred and got a guilt trip from a couple of folks, I said I preferred AWD’s GFY better.
He always gave the impression of being a good man and defended righteousness at home and abroad. He did not tolerate being called a racist or a heathen. He stood on the right side of those questions and provided a good example for folks here.
I have learned that bad incidents sear into the memory better than a month of good days. bb’s obnoxious prodding is why I remember his comment:
He once wrote, “I love everyone here” then bb came back with a dumb comment like, ‘you love me, AWD?’ I believe he did, since he took the time to give bb one last GFY.

IndenturedServant
IndenturedServant
August 24, 2014 4:16 am

Well shit! I was outside all day busting my ass, working harder than I have in a great many years……no joke! I owe that re-gained ability in large part to AWD.

After more than a full decade of literal agony due to a bad ankle, I posted about it here after a failed ankle surgery that left me worse off. It was already so bad that I could not even imagine “worse”. He advised me on how to find the right doctor to fix my problem and within minutes of his comment, I began doing research to find an ankle surgeon who had forgotten more about ankles than most doctors will ever learn, a true master of his craft. Within a month I was arranging referrals and making trips to other states to find the right guy for the job. That was two years ago.

In June 2013 I had a second surgery to transplant bone with intact cartilage from a cadaver into my ankle. With the aid of a nerve block, I opted to have my wife drive me home a few hours after surgery. Three hundred miles and 8 hours later we arrived home where I slept for 11 hours straight. As soon as I woke up I knew that the surgery was a success. That constant 24/7, soul crushing, life destroying pain I had endured for over decade was gone. It literally felt like someone had flipped the pain switch off. Even the surgical pain from orthopedic surgery felt great compared to the pain I had before surgery.

I’m now having the best summer I’ve had in 12 years. In the last five weeks I’ve moved, by shovel and wheel barrow……10 yards of top soil, 4 yards of subsoil, 10 yards of gravel, nearly 40 yards of wood chips and 4 yards of compost. AWD’s advice has given me my life back! I expected my pain levels to decrease but I never dared to hope I would feel this good again and be pain free again so my hat is off to AWD. I was really looking forward to meeting him when I make a trip to Ohio in the next few years. I’d have loved to have seen his rock quarry doomstead and bought him a beer or ten!

I rarely commented on his posts because when he got done going off the rails with one of his posts there was not much left to say or disagree with. How he found the fortitude to read and write such massive amounts of doom porn I’ll never know. It’s hard to believe I could be so grateful and feel so indebted to a man I’ve never met or even knew his name. When I first read this post after working into the dark I broke down and cried for the first time in nine years. All that……..over a persona……. I met on The Burning Platform! I don’t know if heaven exists but if it does I sincerely hope he is there! Thank you AWD! I wish I could have known you in real life!

IndenturedServant
IndenturedServant
August 24, 2014 4:26 am

bb says:
“I’m not sure what to say. I hope he knows I was playing around when I made those stupid comments on his posts .I just enjoyed getting him to respond .”

There’s nothing you can say. Your problem is that you can’t turn off stupid. You were probably the kind of kid who fried ants with a magnifying glass or pulled the wings off of flies “just because you enjoyed watching them respond”.

On behalf of AWD and with all the sincerity I can muster, “bb, Go fuck yourself. Dumb ass village idiot”.

ASIG
ASIG
August 24, 2014 5:18 am

Wow

Such a huge loss. He truly will be missed!

AWD–May GOD bless you and keep you.

Tom
Tom
August 24, 2014 5:42 am

So sad to hear that. May he rest in peace

Leobeer
Leobeer
August 24, 2014 5:51 am

“Does anyone know if he is the same or different from the owener of the angrywhitedude web site?” — Didius Julianus

I would assume not the same as AWD is still posting at

http://angrywhitedude.com/

flash
flash
August 24, 2014 6:38 am

What sad, sad news to awake to on Sunday morning.Even though we went to war on opposite sides of the line sometimes, I will truly miss his scalding wit and the TBP family will never be quite the same without him.

RIP AWD.

Llpoh
Llpoh
August 24, 2014 7:45 am

Fuck. I had hoped he just rode off into the sunset. I have been looking for his posts each time I jump on TBP train.

I will be/ have been posting intermittently for the next few weeks. I have dropped my youngest off at college, spent a few days in NYC, and am in the UK for the next few weeks touring. If you do not hear from me, it is most likely because of that, and because ill has befallen me.

My last comment, I think, was to thank AWD for his service. I was on the welcoming team when he first showed up – that was the tradition then. I posted untold numbers of photos of folks/animals with fingers up the bung hole,and rode him like a rented mule.

He was a great member of the community.

His hatred of Obama was a thing that never waned, and was pure. So I say this for him:

Fuck Obama.

Llpoh
Llpoh
August 24, 2014 7:48 am

Should say above “not because ill has befallen me”.

Adios, AWD. It was great to meet you.

Bostonbob
Bostonbob
August 24, 2014 8:18 am

This is truly disheartening. I had hoped AWD had grown weary or distracted and maybe moved on for a while. I so often looked forward to his scathing commentaries and often hideous pictures, I wondered how he could put out so much commentary, but again he was AWD. It just brakes my heart that he will not be able to see his daughters grow up, it is the most precious gift that we have as parents.

“I have known many, liked not a few, loved only one, I drink to you.”

Bob

Welshman
Welshman
August 24, 2014 8:31 am

TBP,

I was thinking about him yesterday, and that is damn sad news. Only fifty, guess my 72 years are a blessing, WOW.

I use to tease him when he gave advice to men about their wives, and he always took it good naturely.

AWD did alot of sweat equity on TBP, I will surely miss him, and the Admin. is having a day in the dumps .

hardscrabble farmer
hardscrabble farmer
August 24, 2014 8:37 am

Sad news for his wife and his children, I have no doubt he we will be sorely missed by them and I hope they find the strength to deal with their loss.

For AWD, he’s off on the last and greatest adventure, from mass into energy, truly free at last.

It was always fun to read you, you will be missed.

SAH
SAH
August 24, 2014 8:38 am

Fuck, fuck, fuck no!!! NOOOOOOOO!!!

RIP AWD

overthecliff
overthecliff
August 24, 2014 8:43 am

I didn`t know you could feel an empty spot in your heart for a guy who posted on the internet. It shows you that he was so much more than that. RIP

overthecliff
overthecliff
August 24, 2014 8:44 am

Thumbs up, AWD.

A Fatfuk Girl
A Fatfuk Girl
August 24, 2014 9:05 am

Dear AWD,

I used to be a fattie. But, your many fatfuk articles have inspired me to lose weight.

Thanks to you, you would be proud of me today.

In your honor …
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I’ll miss you more than you know.

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