Stop Wasting Time!! (Cuz You’ll Be DEAD Before You Know It)

“How we spend our days is, of course, how we spend our lives.” — Annie Dillard

How much water is left in YOUR fishbowl?

 

Imagine that the moment you are born that your number of allotted years is represented as a fishbowl of water. For some, the bowl of water represents 90 or more years. Sadly, others only get a day. Most of us are allotted days somewhere in between. But, the fact of the matter is that the quantity is quite finite. In more morbid terms, we all march inexorably to our deaths from the moment we enter this world.

Now, this is a most unsettling thought! So unsettling, in fact, that most of us can’t handle it. Sure, we all know we’re going to die – in a 21st century intellectually rationalist sort of way. But, we really don’t BELIEVE it – nosiree, not with the same conviction that we believe, for example, that the sun will rise tomorrow. Seneca tells us as much when he writes;

 “You live as if you would live forever; the thought of human frailty never enters your head, you never notice how much of your time is already spent.” ———— Seneca (quotes in green)

I don’t know about you … but, that pretty much sounds like me. I rarely give my fishbowl much thought.

SENECA – THE VERY RICH STOIC

Seneca states that not only do we refuse to come to terms with our very brief time on earth but, even worse, we waste away the precious little time we do possess. He goes into considerable detail showing how we shackle ourselves to our labors and our professions. He laments that we give so much of ourselves – in terms of time – to those who do nothing but waste our time. He considered it a tragedy that too many die as if they were children, never having learned to live a full life. In modern terms he would say we’re all too happy that etched on our tombstones is our greatest accomplishment; “He filled out all his expense reports on time.”

Seneca was a Stoic. Stoicism is not a popular philosophy today, especially in America. Why? Stoics don’t believe in Hope, or Materialism! That won’t fly in this country where our last eight years were based on the Hopey and Changy thingee from our half-black President …. or the instruction from the moron from Texas to ‘Go Buy Stuff!” immediately after 19 Saudi’s brought down the Twin Towers. Not to mention that the New Testament proclaims that the three greatest gift that remain throughout eternity are “faith, HOPE, and love”.   Stoicism is just not “natural” to most Americans.

“The greatest hindrance to living is expectancy [hope], which depends upon the morrow and wastes today. You dispose of that which lies in the hands of Fortune, you let go that which lies in your own. Whither do you look? At what goal do you aim? All things that are still to come lie in uncertainty; live straightway! But those who forget the past, neglect the present, and fear for the future have a life that is very brief and troubled; when they have reached the end of it, the poor wretches perceive too late that for such a long while they have been busied in doing nothing.”

That really doesn’t fit our “Power Of Positive Thinking” culture. I can almost envision all the nasty comments fomenting in your minds!

On top of that, the other criticism is that Seneca was very very rich …. certainly in the Top 5 in all of the Roman Empire. An elite. The one-percenter of his day. Someone who could afford to gaze at his navel, and contemplate esoteric teachings …. unattainable, in practical terms, to ninety-nine percent of the rest of the empire’s population. Furthermore, Seneca wrote his letter to his friend Paulinus who had responsibility for maintaining the entire grain supply for the Roman Empire. As such, Paulinus was just as rich as Seneca.  In modern parlance, it would be like Bill Gates and Warren Buffet pontificating on “what it all means”. Most people would find whatever these two old Cooters came up with to be above their pay grade.

Nevertheless, “On the shortness of life” is considered one of the great ancient classics. Sure, I find some of the philosophy to be quite objectionable. But, few philosophies are one hundred percent incorrect. Throw out the bad, and keep the good. And Seneca has some terrific advice … pertinent even to our times.

Before we look at just a few key passages, I believe you’ll find it worthwhile to familiarize yourself with Stoicism by watching the following under five minute video. Some say Stoics were pessimists. I think they’re realists. Decide for yourself.

5 MAIN POINTS

1)– Stop Making The Complaint – “There’s just not enough time.”

“It is not that we have a short time to live, but that we waste a lot of it. Life is long enough, and a sufficiently generous amount has been given to us for the highest achievements if it were all well invested. But when it is wasted in heedless luxury and spent on no good activity, we are forced at last by death’s final constraint to realize that it has passed away before we knew it was passing. So it is: we are not given a short life but we make it short, and we are not ill-supplied but wasteful of it… Life is long if you know how to use it..”

Seneca says that people complain about the “meanness of nature” because our lives are so brief, and we aren’t given enough time to live them. However, this is not the fault of the gods … it is solely our fault. Mankind is cursed by insatiable greed, and that greed causes a slavish dedication to useless tasks. He quotes an unnamed poet: It is a small part of life we really live.” He then notes a number of ways in which man spends time not living;

— slothfulness

— drunkenness

— working to make others rich

— serving or associating with thankless people

— worrying about what other people think of us

— procrastination is “idiotic” and may be the biggest “sin” of all

— being involved in activities where the main motivation is greed

— having too many goals, or no fixed goal at all … he recommends having one primary life goal, picking just one thing, even if it’s the wrong thing

 

2)– The “preoccupied” find life very short.

 “Indeed the state of all who are preoccupied is wretched, but the most wretched are those who are toiling not even at their own preoccupations but must regulate their sleep by another’s, their walk by another’s pace, and obey orders in those freest of all things, loving and hating. If such people want to know how short their lives are, let them reflect how small a portion is their own. …. the preoccupied become aware of life only when it is over.”

The “preoccupied” are not only those who toil for other men, but also those who live a life of leisure. People who have so much free time on their hands that they are involved with such trivialities as “those who arrange with anxious precision his Corinthian bronzes”. Not all leisure is truly leisure. What would he say if he walked into a Home Depot? He then uses a lot of ink to scorn those people who get angry because they received a bad haircut. (Really.) He observes that such people would be more upset by a bad haircut than in their own country being invaded. He wonders; Which would not be more anxious about the elegance of his head than its safety?”    I wonder how America is any different … where only 20% of Americans can name more than one of the five freedoms guaranteed by the First Amendment, but 90% can name all the men screwing the Kardashian women whores.

 

3)– Stop waiting for retirement to enjoy life, or do what you really want

“So you must not think a man has lived long because he has white hair and wrinkles: he has not lived long, just existed long. …….. Certain people reveal the most stupid indignation: they complain about the pride of their superiors because they did not have time to give them an audience when they wanted one. But can anyone dare to complain about another’s pride when he himself never has time for himself?”

Seneca is appalled that people put off leisure time until their retirement. he says it is supremely stupid to wait until one’s mental and physical faculties are in decline to devote one’s wisdom to life and living.

He gives the example of Emperor Augusts who was heavily burdened by the responsibilities of his post. It was Augusts’ desire for leisure that comes with old age that gave him solace in his labors. Yet, there is sorrow in Augusts’ final words on his death bed; — “Did I play the part well? Then applaud as I exit.”. Like a tragic Shakespearean play, Augusts’ life was merely a role he played for the benefit of the audience.

He continues on with Cicero — one of Rome’s greatest politicians and orators — who wrote in a letter to a friend that he felt as if he were “half a prisoner” while lounging in his Tuscan estate. Cicero was so entangled within his duties and burdened by his commitments that even in leisure Cicero felt as if he were a prisoner. That, according to Seneca, is no way to live.

 

4)– How shall we then live?

“We are in the habit of saying that it was not in our power to choose the parents who were allotted to us, that they were given to us by chance. But we can choose whose children we would like to be; Zeno, Pythagoras, Democritus, Aristotle, and Theophrastus ……… We are in the habit of saying that it was not in our power to choose the parents who were allotted to us, that they were given to us by chance. But we can choose whose children we would like to be.”

Philosophy is what makes life worth living! Not a surprising statement coming from a philosopher. Now, that doesn’t mean you should go to Barnes&Noble and purchase “The 100 Greatest Philosophers In History”.  According to Seneca, philosophy was quite simply a conscious and deliberate pursuit of knowledge and wisdom. We are properly engaged in the duties of life only by deliberate striving to uncover True Wisdom.

It is only by endeavoring to uncover true wisdom that we are properly engaged in the duties of life. The Stoics taught that we ought to live according to nature … and that humans ought to live according to our human nature. Learning and increasing in wisdom is man’s most natural and pleasant state … and should be a lifelong pursuit.

This is a difficult concept for Americans to accept. Most of us are defined by our work. “How dare you say my work doesn’t matter!”, is probably your reaction right now. As mentioned above, Seneca wrote his letter to Paulinus — the keeper of Rome’s grain supply, the man responsible for ensuring that citizens were fed and that starvation and famine didn’t run wild through the city. Yet, Seneca is telling his friend that being shackled to such responsibilities is no way to live one’s life! Wow, that’s a difficult pill to swallow.

Nevertheless, as one continues to read the rest of the letter, Seneca’s “bottom line” is an idea we can all support. Death is an inevitable conclusion to life, and ought not to be feared. Live life as if every day were your last, because it might just be. And don’t worry so much about filling out your expense report on time. Languishing about your lot in life is a complete waste of time. Instead, take time to cultivate your inner self, as the pursuit of True Wisdom is life’s greatest reward. And when we die, and die we will, we should die content with our lives, with ourselves, and with the beauty of our souls.

 

5) Take stock! A sobering chart.

 “Check off, I say, and review the days of your life; you will see that very few, and those the refuse, have been left for you.”

This is probably not what Seneca meant by checking-off and reviewing your life. However, as a visual aid of our lives in terms of time gone by, and the possible time left, I believe it can shock some of us into reality about the shortness of life. Print it out, stick it on your fridge, and check off each month. And, as you check off each month you might ask yourself; “How much time did I waste that month?” or, “How much time did I spend pursuing True Wisdom?”

YIKES!!!!

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Fill in your name …. have fun.

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FULL TEXT OF SENECA’S LETTER: https://tripinsurancestore.com//4/on-the-shortness-of-life.pdf

Oh, one last thing. If Seneca were alive today, he wouldn’t take a Selfie! He’d be too busy commenting on The Burning Platform … and then kill himself after talking with bb.

 

Author: Stucky

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bb
bb
May 24, 2015 3:35 pm

I’m not afraid of death , I just don’t want to be there when it happens.Woody Allen.

Or about goals in life

The hard way is the way.Bruce Lee.

EL Coyote
EL Coyote
May 24, 2015 4:45 pm

Stucky deserved a better audience for this introspective piece. He reminds me of a fellow I saw at the mall, an obviously homeless black man of a certain age when men become unemployable. He was writing furiously on a legal pad. After 20 minutes, he stopped and shook his writing arm as if to dislodge the pain and stiffness so he could go on writing. No soldier wants to die while he still has ammo, no writer wants to die while he still has something to say. No truck driver wants to die while there is still highway ahead or as that modern philosopher once wrote; so many women, so little time.

IndenturedServant
IndenturedServant
May 24, 2015 6:13 pm

I ponder this kind of thing all the time. Probably daily! I don’t want to be the one to pull the trigger but I have come to the conclusion that hoomans, completely unable to see beyond the nose on the faces, are a plague on this planet. There exists a .000001% exception.

I hope my fishbowl is down to it’s final few drops but I fear someone might be refilling it! I’m torn between wanting to get off this merry-go-round today and wanting to be the last hooman alive so I can witness the full gravity of the epic fail despite the epic sadness that will result from such an enormous loss of potential. The sadness will be for the .000001%.

Maybe next time the cosmic recycler will put the .000001% on top.

Peaceout
Peaceout
May 24, 2015 6:16 pm

Thank you for this piece Stucky, well written, after reading it you can’t help but take stock in your own life and not concur that the majority of people are subject to the eight examples of not living above. Some are hard to avoid and others we have complete control of the decisions we make during the course of the day. I know I am at that point in my life where I have mortality issues where I will tell the missus ‘if we don’t do it now, when will we’, which has made us change from putting this or that off for another day, to just doing them.

I always think of the line in Shawshank Redemption, ‘get busy living or get busy dying.’

ZombieDawg
ZombieDawg
May 24, 2015 7:38 pm

“You live as if you would live forever; the thought of human frailty never enters your head, you never notice how much of your time is already spent.”

Most people live as though they will never die, then die without ever having lived…

llpoh
llpoh
May 24, 2015 10:44 pm

Stuck –

First, thanks for the continued efforts.

Second, not all posts can be crowd-pleasers, and you have had your share of those, so stop sulking. It is unbecoming of a man your age. At 62, if you are gonna sulk, sulk about all those extra women you could bedded and didn’t when you were 20.

Third – philosophy blows chunks. Fuck the Stoics, Plato, Socrates, JS Mills, Descartes, Kant, Nietzsche, et al. I hate that shit – it makes my head hurt, and best I can tell they only cause problems because people believe the shit that they spew forth. Also, most people in the world are too busy struggling to find their next meal – and always have – for philosophy to have any value to them.

I mean, just look at point #1 above, where Seneca decries some of my favorite things: sloth, drunkenness, making other people rich (I have found making others rich has helped make me rich, too – may not work for others, but has for me), procrastination, and goals (what is too many?).

Fuck that shit – several of those things are fun – they make living fun! I like a good lazy day on occasion, I like to drink with my friends sometimes, I love working towards goals. And putting off things soothes my soul at times. Makes me feel less like a tax slave, and more free, it does.

And fact is, very few people have the power to reason philosophically. Many of the great philosophers had IQs that were stratospheric. That shit does not translate to the average joe blow. Go down to your local watering hole and talk about Kant, for fuck sake, and watch the response.

So – there you go – I have posted something.

Zarathustra
Zarathustra
May 24, 2015 11:20 pm

Ayn Rand (paraphrasing): A political disagreement is a minor skirmish; a philosophical one is nuclear war.

EL Coyote
EL Coyote
May 25, 2015 12:34 am

T4C, are you OK? since I never heard of you having a ‘condition’ it seems suspicious that you were under the weather a while ago and now you are going through a yucky time. How is it that eating is a bother? It this medical ganja you smoke? Don’t answer if I’m being too nosy but I’m wondering if your OK..

llpoh
llpoh
May 25, 2015 12:37 am

If I was to say I lean toward a modern philosopher, it would have to be this guy:

“All normal people love meat. If I went to a barbeque and there was no meat, I would say ‘Yo Goober! Where’s the meat?”

I’m having the best day of my life, and I owe it all to not going to Church!

Go ahead and play the blues if it’ll make you happy.

Ah, the Luftwaffe. The Washington Generals of the History Channel.

America’s health care system is second only to Japan… Canada, Sweden, Great Britain… well, all of Europe. But you can thank your lucky stars we don’t live in Paraguay.

Because they’re stupid, that’s why. That’s why everybody does everything.

But I can’t be a missionary. I don’t even believe in Jebus.

Everyone knows rock n’ roll attained perfection in 1974; It’s a scientific fact.

The trick is to say you’re prejudiced against all races.

Don’t you know the saying? ‘Water water everywhere, so let’s all have a drink.’

You tried your best and you failed miserably. The lesson is, never try.

You can’t keep blaming yourself. Just blame yourself once, and move on

What do we need a psychiatrist for? We know our kid is nuts.

All normal people love meat. If I went to a barbeque and there was no meat, I would say ‘Yo Goober! Where’s the meat?’

Aw, Dad… you’ve done a lot of great things, but you’re a very old man now, and old people are useless, aren’t they?

Boy, everyone is stupid except me.

What if we picked the wrong religion? Each week we just make God madder and madder.

Facts are meaningless. You can use facts to prove anything that’s even remotely true!

God bless those pagans.

I saw weird stuff in that place last night. Weird, strange, sick, twisted, eerie, godless, evil stuff… and I want in.

If something’s hard to do, then it’s not worth doing

Trying is the first step towards failure.

Oh, everything’s too damned expensive these days. Like this Bible: 15 bucks! And talk about a preachy book! According to this, everybody’s a sinner! Except for this guy.

Beer, beer, beer, bed, bed, bed.

Beer. Now there’s a temporary solution.”

Philosophy provided by Homer Simpson

IndenturedServant
IndenturedServant
May 25, 2015 1:20 am

Hey Stuck, I meant to add that I liked the article and appreciate most of what you write. Like I said earlier, I like to ponder these ideas all the time but as llpoh pointed out: “very few people have the power to reason philosophically.” No doubt about it…..I’m not one of the few.

llpoh
llpoh
May 25, 2015 1:20 am

Yes – I believe life should have its pleasures. Not at the exclusion of all else. I do not think life was meant to be easy.

But I do think that there are simple pleasure all can attain – love, children, family, the simple joy of work done well. And that more complex pleasure can be obtained/earned by overcoming the challenges that life naturally present.

Where the world is coming unstuck is that persons are not earning the complex pleasures – expecting others to foot the bill for such, and are abandoning the simple ones that come largely for free – family, love, children, and the pure joy of work and learning.

EL Coyote
EL Coyote
May 25, 2015 1:21 am

Stuck, your confusing yourself with EL Coyote, who is 60 and 3 months (your chart has three squares hi-lited in the 62 row). That easy to do because EL Coyote is also a first gen Americano, bi-lingual, divorced and re-married, ex-bible thumper. Although in height and intellect I fall far short of your achievements.

EL Coyote
EL Coyote
May 25, 2015 1:26 am

But on the plus side, I am hung like a donkey.

EL Coyote
EL Coyote
May 25, 2015 1:38 am

EL Coyote says: But on the plus side, I am hung like a donkey.

I wish that was true, Coyote doppel, I don’t know whether to be flattered or close my blinds.

Glenrage
Glenrage
May 25, 2015 4:30 am

Great piece of writing Stucky. This is my first comment left on this site after hanging around for about 6 months. Probably one of the younger readers on this site (24) so I can give some millennial insight. Every reason you posted is pretty much spot on with everyone I know around my age, too busy taking drunk selfies and tweeting to give any fucks about wisdom. Really enjoyed this article though, helps a lot to figure out life a lot sooner than my peers and not get stuck in their rat race and end up being 65 and wondering where all the years went….

starfcker
starfcker
May 25, 2015 4:53 am

Glenrage, it’s real simple. Pick out what you want, and do it as hard as you can. Never fear failure, unless it involves life or limb. The world will judge you, and decide how to treat you, based on what you accomplish. Be a man with a plan. To be a man is to be a beast of burden. Embrace it. Succeed, or leave a big smoking crater. Never say die. A man with a pretty wife, asked out a pretty girl. Power is just responsibility.

Montefrío
Montefrío
May 25, 2015 6:12 am

“If an ordinary man, when he is about to die, could only see the five elements of consciousness as void; the four physical elements as not constituting an “I”; the real Mind as formless and neither coming nor going; his nature as something neither commencing at his birth nor perishing at his death, but as whole and motionless in its very depths; his Mind and environmental objects as one—if he could really accomplish this, he would receive Enlightenment in a flash…He would just be himself, oblivious of conceptual thought and one with the Absolute. He would have attained the state of unconditioned being. This, then, is the fundamental principle.” (Huang Po)

flash
flash
May 25, 2015 8:20 am

“Up ahead they’s a thousan’ lives we might live, but when it comes it’ll on’y be one.”
― John Steinbeck, The Grapes of Wrath

Stephanie Shepard
Stephanie Shepard
May 25, 2015 9:56 am

Indeed I did recommend it. It turned out great Stucky! Can I repost it on the website I am currently developing?

SKINBAG
SKINBAG
May 25, 2015 10:25 am

THANK YOU STUCKY !

Administrator
Administrator
  Stucky
May 25, 2015 11:19 am

Stuck

The lack of comments is due to the holiday weekend. TBP visitor counts are 40% lower than the daily average. I’ll leave it at the top and it will get more exposure tomorrow.

Stephanie Shepard
Stephanie Shepard
May 25, 2015 11:11 am

Stucky- I am developing a website that is extensive in philosophy, art, science, mathematics etc. This will suit nicely in the mix.

Administrator
Administrator
  Stucky
May 25, 2015 11:40 am

Stuck

You have always been the stick that stirs this drink. I appreciate your support more than you know. When you left for those many months, the place wasn’t the same. Your point of view is refreshing and different than mine. That broadens the appeal of the site.

Your article has over 800 reads so far. I’m sure it will get over 3,000 by tomorrow.

JA
JA
May 25, 2015 11:43 am

I was once living in total sloth, drunkenness, procrastination, and misery … And I was definitely dead inside and not living. However, once I started surrounding myself with people that show me love unconditionally, I’ve found that living to help others and be surrounded by positive people are what makes my life worthwhile. I’ve learned to try to be grateful for every aspect of life, even pain and sickness. Simply to breath is good enough for me today. I don’t buy into some of the cynicism in this post … Working is a fulfilling aspect of life, not necessarily for the money, but to become a fully self-supporting adult .. Even if it’s making someone else rich.

Gayle
Gayle
May 25, 2015 12:47 pm

Interesting post, Stuck. I’ve been thinking I wouldn’t invite a bunch of stoics to my birthday party. They would probably consider it a waste of time and be miserable.

I have collected some pithy sayings that reflect how to live. Some are profound, some not so much. Hear ya go.

We do not see things as they are, we see things as we are. -Anais Nin

You will find that it is necessary to let things go, simply because they are HEAVY.

Drink good coffee. Read good books.

“What day is it?” asked Pooh.
“It’s today, squeaked Piglet.”
“My favorite day,” said Pooh.

Life is very short and there is no time for fussing and fighting my friend. -Beatles

Fall seven times, stand up eight. -Japanese proverb

Life is short. Buy the shoes.

Everything you want is on the other side of fear.

Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle. -Plato

Be the person your dog thinks you are.

Don’t grow up. It’s a trap.

When you’re sad, just remember that you don’t look like you did in 6th grade.

Pancakes make people happy.

Dust if you must: but wouldn’t it be better to paint a picture or write a letter, or bake a cake, or plant a seed?

I still find each day too short for all the thoughts I want to think, all the walks I want to take, all the books I want to read, and all the friends I want to see. -John Burroughs

Happiness is an inside job.

Dear younger me: You will get much better with age.

Wisdom is nothing more than healed pain.

Be a fountain not a drain.

The trouble is, you think you have time. -attributed to Buddha, but probably not from him.

Don’t believe everything you think.

In three words I can sum up everything I’ve learned about life. It goes on. -Robert Frost

Stephanie Shepard
Stephanie Shepard
May 25, 2015 12:59 pm

Stucky- Its been in the making for some time. When I launched Time of Calamity I had no idea anybody would take an interest and to my surprise I got added to many blogrolls and did guest posts on website that had nothing to do with economics. At the time economics was just one interest out of several. I needed to take a step back and find out exactly what kind of website I wanted to launch. I read an article about Charlie Munger, Warren Buffet’s business partner of 50 years, about being an expert-generalist. From there I decided to tie the topics together. I am really excited about this blog launch. And Admin will see his $100 put to good use lol.

IndenturedServant
IndenturedServant
May 25, 2015 1:24 pm

Stucky, I’ve read this three times now and I can’t help but marvel at how much stoicism aligns with my own “positive pessimism” method of living life which is basically, “expect the worst in every situation and when that doesn’t happen, it’s a good day”. It seems odd to me that many interpret this (me) as being negative but in my head it’s totally positive….even in unexpected ways. It tends to keep the positive thinking crowd away which is, IMO, dominated by moronic sheep. Even when I make a stupid decision or “the worst” in a situation happens I find that it always leads me down a path where I learn something new or at the very least, experience something I would have otherwise missed.

I’m reminded of John Downs, the S. American motorcycle adventurer who just went to jail. In a similar situation I’d be much like him and looking forward to the jail experience as a new adventure. I’ve mentioned before that IMO, if heaven (and hell) exists I believe we are surrounded by it at all times and it is up to us enjoy it (or avoid it) as it comes. Heaven has no meaning or value without hell and you always need one to fully appreciate the other. Same goes for hate and rage. Without them, how can you fully appreciate love and peace?

I believe I have lived an wonderful, fulfilling life thus far even if I don’t have a list of accomplishments that impresses anyone. I’m a happy guy and I have been happy even in some adverse situations. I have a few minor regrets in life but no major ones. My “standard candle” has been “if I had to live my life over again, would I choose the same path” and the answer is yes. Of course I’ve wasted some time (too much) and fucked some things up (not enough) but I know that MY happiness comes from somewhere deep inside. I even look at death and sometimes look forward to it not as and end to life but as a new experience regardless of whether it is permanent or just the next step.

Two things mystify me. 1) Why more people do not think like me. I see too many people seemingly lose their fucking minds when relatively minor misfortune befalls them (drama queens) so I assume they must be miserable most of the time. 2) The other is how to get my mind right regarding our current situation of doom. The doom doesn’t bother me so much. It’s the lies and betrayal behind all of it that chaps my ass in a way that fills me with rage. It just seems to me that what is commonly known as “The American Dream” is mostly a big deception and lie. Had I seen or known about this lie much earlier I might have lived my life differently. Maybe not but I can’t stand liars. With individuals I can shun them but when it’s the entire system you live under…….well……that’s different in my head (a crime even) and I can’t seem to find a way to get right with that in my mind. I’d rather know the truth regardless of how ugly it is and live my life from the starting point of truth than a lie. In a sense, the lie has stolen my freedom of informed choice.

Thanks again Stuck.

I’ll be putting together a post on of all things, SLIME MOLD, while I’m on vacation. My back to eden garden is absolutely brimming with the stuff. In 48 years of life I’ve only encountered about a dozen slime molds and in the last few weeks I’ve been living with twice than many in my own garden! Totally cool shit that I think you and T4C will get a kick out of. They even display a capacity for intelligence and problem solving though I doubt it is real intelligence.

IndenturedServant
IndenturedServant
May 25, 2015 1:35 pm

Hey Clammy, did you ever publish that civil war book? I might have missed it.

Stephanie Shepard
Stephanie Shepard
May 25, 2015 1:56 pm

IS- It is written and is being launched with the blog. I’ve been working on several projects that will be launched at the same time.

IndenturedServant
IndenturedServant
May 25, 2015 2:01 pm

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May 25, 2015 2:01 pm

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Gayle
Gayle
May 25, 2015 2:20 pm

@ I_S

“The other is how to get my mind right regarding our current situation of doom. The doom doesn’t bother me so much. It’s the lies and betrayal behind all of it that chaps my ass in a way that fills me with rage.”

This is the greatest challenge in life for me right now. Living in the middle of a false reality that becomes more pronounced, more perverse every day takes its toll. Perhaps the asleep ones are the better off.

If you have ever been close to someone who is a pathological liar, you understand that such a person will eventually drive you crazy. You finally must escape in order to preserve your sanity. But there is no escaping the Big Lie unless you cut yourself off from everyone and everything (become an isolated hermit) or just die. We are stuck with the Liar and must find a way to cope without becoming bitter and hopeless or running away to Nowhere.

We are not the first human beings to live inside a lie. I need to research to discover the coping mechanisms of those others. Elie Weisel said that someone who hates one group will end up hating everyone and eventually himself or herself, and I can feel this potential in me. How to not hate the oppressors in such a way as to increase the darkness that is already here – now that is a challenge.

Without my faith I would be much worse off. No one can get ahold of my soul no matter what they might do to me. John Tyndale, burned at the stake because he translated the Bible into English, comes to mind. Would I be able to stand so firm in the face of black-booted or black-masked tyranny?
I can find some rest in the assurance that in the end, all will be made right.

Rise Up
Rise Up
May 25, 2015 2:41 pm

Thanks Stucky for the info on Seneca–didn’t know much about him or the stoic philosophy before now. Don’t think I’ll print out that chart and put it on my fridge, however. No need to count down the last 20-30 years I have left–the time will fly by on it’s own.

LLOPH – +1000 (your first comment)

I feel I’ve had a pretty full life of interesting jobs, good luck with women (and picked a good wife and 20+ years of marriage now), a fine son in college, and never really had many tough times. Not rich, but not poor either. “Content with life” is how I’d put it. If I died tomorrow, I’d not want for anything.

P.S. Seneca was the name of my first dog (but named for the Seneca Indian Nation, not the Roman).

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IndenturedServant
IndenturedServant
May 25, 2015 2:51 pm

Gayle, thanks for the comment. If you find a way to get right with the big lie please pass it on. I really do enjoy pondering the many twists and turns or life both before and after they occur. I just wish my mind (and writing) were more disciplined as I might get more from it. One thing I’ve pondered to determine if I could handle isolation is the idea of being a POW or ordinary prisoner. I have no doubt the experience would be miserable but I believe I could escape into my own mind and find refuge. The difficulty might be escaping from my mind back to reality. I figure that right at the moment of my death I’ll have discovered who/what I really want to be.

IndenturedServant
IndenturedServant
May 25, 2015 3:03 pm

Stucky, the grits post wasn’t about pursuing the perfect bowl of grits. It was about finding the right grits with which to make the perfect bowl of grits. I just figured our southern contributors would know which brands are worth using. As usual, they did not disappoint. As a matter of fact, that Anson Mills brand sounds downright intriguing considering they brought back two different, nearly extinct varieties of corn to do it. The real bonus is that I get to spend my money with hardworking people who are dedicated to what they do as opposed to some “profit at all cost” corporation whose owners have no idea what they even make. That’s why I love da innerwebz and TBP in particular. I come here for doom porn but learn so much more.

EL Coyote
EL Coyote
May 25, 2015 3:11 pm

I-S, you sound like a totally different person. Positivity? Coming from a commenter who repeatedly complains about a bygone era of clinical cleanliness in comments, I find it hard to digest your philosophy. Perhaps it is that photo of a grouchy dog that colors your comments. Something makes me see your posts in a bad light. They say emotions have no IQ, your emotions and Billy’s give me the impression you two are a couple of morons with a capital MO.
However, I would be glad to consider more of your positivity as it relates to ‘anticipating the worst and delighting in the better outcome’ because that is a pessimistic outlook married to an optimistic sense of hope. Are you deliberately mixing the two and creating a new philosophy? I suppose such a philosophy can absolve you of voting for change, all the while expecting a boot in the face but being delighted when all you get is robbed.

EL Coyote
EL Coyote
May 25, 2015 3:27 pm

Men seek out problems to solve to give meaning to their lives. – El Coyote

IndenturedServant
IndenturedServant
May 25, 2015 4:00 pm

Stucky, in our search for knowledge we are very much brothers. I really enjoy the company of people who constantly educate themselves in both big and small ways. I’m endlessly fascinated by just about everything. I skipped college because at age 18 I was not ready for college and by the time I was ready I knew that I would never leave college because there is so much I want to know. I’d love to study everything from medicine to fire science, not because I want to pursue those fields as a career but because I just want the knowledge.

I’m always amazed at how some esoteric tidbit of knowledge acquired as a child translates to or enhances an interest I develop later in life. I’m a voracious reader but not of novels/fiction. I’m more interested in everything else from toothpaste packages to technical manuals and educational info. There’s no rhyme or reason to it much like the way I live life. I have no real set of goals beyond trying to put away enough shekels to some day not *have* to work but I like work so I’ll probably never stop. I generally bounce through life flitting from one thing to another with equal enthusiasm. Even my work has had no real order to it. I’ve worked as a shoe shine boy, mechanic, grocery store stocker, butcher shop cleaner-upper, concrete finisher, III-V crystal growth technician and golf course groundskeeper. I cannot even imagine working in one field of endeavor all my life anymore than I can imagine living in one place my whole life. I do it all and derive enormous satisfaction from it all with no sense of greed or gobs ma dats or even a desire for others to know what I do. And through it all, my mind is running a million miles per hour on dozens of other topics everyday.

I have an absolutely insatiable curiosity for life and as long as I’m satisfying that curiosity, I’m happy.

ottomatik
ottomatik
May 25, 2015 5:07 pm

Stuck-Thanks for the article, there is much I need to consider in the practice of my daily daily… I imagine I am about 1/2 way, but…..that could be grossly exaggerated as we all know. As we head in to the quickening of the Crisis turning I try and focus on some simple truths as I am happy with what I have done, where I have been, sooo…..
All roads lead to the same place.

Thoughts on death from the other side of the globe
” I have found the essence of Bushido, to DIE! It is simple, whenever faced with a choice between life and death, always choose death, this is all you must remember.”
Inazo Nitobe 1899 excerpts from Hagakure

Rise Up
Rise Up
May 25, 2015 5:16 pm

“T4C says: Wow Rise Up. Was that what your dog looked like? What a beauty!!”

Yes, exactly like the picture.

Homer
Homer
May 25, 2015 5:23 pm

When asked how the money was lost. Best replied that it was spent on fast cars, fast women, and liquor and the rest was squandered.

Ever notice that others are always critical of how you spend your time, but never on how they spend their time. To each is allotted a slice of time to do with as one chooses. My time is my time and your time is your time and nothing you can say or do will stay the final second that life offers. How you use your time is a personal matter and matters to another naught, within the bounds of civility.

We live in a swirl of possibilities, a World of possibilities and some people are content to live in the excitement afforded in not making a decision. It is their choice, but not making a choice is a choice. However, it is when we make a choice that the Universe of possibilities narrows down to one.

How is one to savor the myriad of possibilities that life has to offer in only one lifetime? To excel in the endless beauty of concentrated dedicated to the pursuit of a given facet of the Universe. Whether Mozart in music, Einstein in mathematics, Hubble is astronomy, on and on it goes.

El Coyote said, “…so many women, so little time”. One doesn’t have to know ALL women to know ‘women’, one only has to know one women and search out the depth of her femininity to know all women. When learning about ‘women’, we learn more about ourselves if we choose to look. And that is what it is all about, learning about ourselves in any of our pursuits. One lifetime, No, that’s just a start.

Who’s has a right to say we squandered our time? The only person qualified to make that judgement is the one who lived it. There are many paths in life, some easy and some hard view by the casual observer. However, to each, the path chosen, is filled with challenges and obstacles to overcome. Sometime, seemingly insurmountable difficulties. How else is there growth? Both physical growth and spiritual growth.

I’m willing to bet that Stucky isn’t the person he was at 20 yrs. old. I know that I’m not. I feel that I’m a better person, today than 50 yrs ago, with a lot of rough edges that still needs smoothing.

Remember, to walk a 1,000 miles in another’s moccasins, you first have to steal their moccasins.
The standard that you set to judge another is the standard you set to judge yourself. Be kind to yourself, love yourself, the rest will fall into place. Grab your shoulders with your hands and give yourself a hug and say to yourself, audibly “I LOVE YOU”. DO IT!

There are a number of great pianist, but only a very few who can make music. Valentina Lisitsa is one. One lifetime of practice? I think not. This is real beauty in a world plunged into depravity.

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Homer
Homer
May 25, 2015 5:27 pm

I mean.

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